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[January 31, 2010 | 10:51 PM] Honey honey why so scared?   "We could imagine all sorts of universes unlike this one, but this is the one that happened."

[January 28, 2010 | 11:38 PM] Today was characterised by all sorts of amazing. Amazing morning in the gym, where I only ran for 10 mins, or a little shorter than that, and then swam 10 laps. I managed to get my ass off my bed for the gym, nice. (actually it's because I have thunder arms now it's monstrous ): ): ) Had class after and then I went to swim another 10 laps, but I think I got fatter and pretty much happier too. The epitome of being happy is doing things you really want to do, and doing it because of some special privilege. So we decided on a random dinner at Tsunami to celebrate my 20th 2 weeks in advance since I'll be back in Singapore with family. Armed with eye-liner, eye shadow, flower in hair, tights and oxfords, I went for my talk and rushed over. Ordered my favourite Black Cod, had the amazing scallops on fire with spicy cream salmon roe sauce, salmon sashimi which were 3 thick chunky amazing slices for a whopping £4.50 but oh-so-worth it and we ended the meal with Macha Ice and White Sesame Ice cream. After those wonderful flavour and lip smacking texture explosions in our mouths, we took 2 polaroids and made the way back to my room for more girly fun. We did things I've always wanted to do, go crazy, dress up ridiculously, make funny faces and have fun. So armed with a polaroid, a lovely photographer and happy 3 friends, we took a crazy range of shots. Sad to say I don't have photos yet, but facebook will suffice. http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=142808&id=544716818&l=3748dccc30 (: twinkling 20th, what a start to a new decade! Aren't you happy for me? haha

Liberation [January 27, 2010 | 01:53 AM]  Amongst the many things that happened today, one of which is that I didn't get into the next round for moots, I realised that I feel this light weight-ness of not having someone constantly on my mind.  It is definitely disappointing not to get into moots, but it's even more liberating to know that I have finally moved on. It's sad to say that I used to say this so clearly, but deep down I knew that I didn't for a pretty long period. It's special that today is different, today is different because today I know that I will look at you in the eyes of a friend, wish you well, but still lead my own life happily and unaffected.  And it's even more lovely how you have brought Jesus into my life again, like how I used to pray so often, go to church, and make some effort. I admit that often when I go I barely pay attention, despite numerous attempts, my brain always floats somewhere else. Ever since I went overseas my life has really changed for the better, except in certain areas, but those are specific areas I can change much more easily. The rest, which I didn't seem to resolve I have slowly resolved them now and I just feel thankful, really thankful. Thank you Lord.

[January 25, 2010 | 09:04 PM]  Move along, we all will, it's just a matter of time. Have more haste, but less speed.  Don't be spiteful, hurtful or uncontented.  Appreciate the wonders around you, and look beyond the other things.  Love fast, furious and forever.

Living in the past [January 19, 2010 | 01:04 AM] A random thought came to mind today.  If what we had was real and the emotions and everything felt so real at that moment, how come we can be so fickle and change our minds? But even though we changed our minds, there's no denying that at that point, the emotions were real and we did love, fast and furious.  So where does this leave us?

[January 15, 2010 | 02:03 AM] "For last year's words belong to last year's language and next year's words await another voice." - T.S Elliot  To that day, I say my prayers and wait. I do my peace and daily offerings, I slowly build good things around myself, and prepare myself to fall deep, fall hard and never fall back.

Dreamcatcher [January 07, 2010 | 01:39 AM] I could almost see you, that dream you're dreaming. There's a voice inside of me, calling out to reach you. I really do miss your smile and am even happier to see your facebook and know that you've been doing happy things.  xxx

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